4 am
Half a world away in Washington, she calls and says, "she's gone"
Barely breathing on the phone, I am barely holding on
To what I have at home, slowly drifting from my own
What kind of friend is not around,
Always out of town, and can't come back now?
What kind of friend's not by your side?
Hear me tonight:
You can't go
We're not ready, people need you still
(I need you still, please come back down)
If I head home tonight, even the very first flight would be too late
Because you've gone away, and I wasn't there in the first place
It comes again
Spilling off the page, these pixels make the words that read, "He's gone"
Air can't seem to find my lungs
I am ever so alone
When all I have to hold, is a liquid crystal rope to home
What kind of son is not around,
Always out of town and can't come back now?
What kind of son's not by your side to say his goodbyes?
You can't go
We're not ready, people need you still
(I need you still, please come back down)
If I head home tonight, even the very first flight would be too late
Because you've gone away, and I wasn't there in the first place
Every day I await your embrace, but you're so far away
Are you listening?
You're so far away
Will you wait for me?
This song was written for Susan Burkart and Charles Hughes, two people that were not in my life long enough. As I'm sure many people/musicians who travel in bands know, one of the worst fears of being on the road is getting that phone call that lets you know that home isn't going to be the same when you return. Losing someone when you're half a world away is such a helpless feeling, and it’s something that I still carry guilt about. Writing this song was a way to get some of that off of my chest. Although it still hurts and I still miss these people dearly, it's one of the best ways I have to cope with it. I touched on these circumstances on my blog, http:// nickythom.tumblr.com/post/7425180070/my-big-long-drug-story, which you can read if you're feeling frisky. Either way, this song was written as a Hit The Lights demo in 2010. It wasn't right for HTL, but it's still a very personal song that I'm proud I got out ,and I'm happy to share it now.
Produced by:
ROB FREEMAN
Drums by:
KEVIN MAHONEY
Mastered by:
JESSE CANNON
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