Oh, fragile eyes; how can it be
you now rely on these machines for life?
The last time that I saw you, you were sleeping in your room
I didn't want to wake you, now it's all I wanna do
Take my heart, if yours won't beat
Take my lungs, if yours won't breathe
Take my eyes, so you can see
I'll fight the angels myself,
before they can take you from me
So still you lie in endless sleep,
Yet hope survives in those that stay by your bedside
Can you hear me calling out?
Are you unaware?
I'm begging you for any sign to show me you're still here
Take my heart if, yours won't beat
Take my lungs, if yours won't breathe
Take my eyes, so you can see
I'll fight the angels myself,
before they can take you from me
Seems like all my life, you've been around
I've been missing out
Missing out and now
All I have is this hollow shell,
to convey to you how much I miss you now
This song was written for my sister, Lauren, who was put into an induced coma in 2005, as her body was battling a virus that filled her lungs almost entirely with fluid. She was care-flown to Ann Arbor, Michigan at UMHS, where she was placed on an ECMO machine that removed the blood from her body, oxygenated it, and then reintroduced it back. This allowed her lungs to heal and drain. At the time, doctors estimated a 60% mortality rate. When I think back to it, it still doesn't feel real. Having someone you love laying there, wired to machines that are the only thing keeping them alive. Talking to them and not knowing if they can hear or feel you. It's such a crushing experience, but my parents were by her side every single day. It took me a while to write this song because, even though my sister defied the odds (and later graduated college as a respiratory therapist), I still get shaky and weak when I relive the feelings during that period. The story has a happy ending, thankfully, and so this song is dedicated to Lauren, my parents, and to the amazing staff at UMHS for making the impossible possible.
Produced by:
ROB FREEMAN
Drums by:
KEVIN MAHONEY
Mastered by:
JESSE CANNON
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